I lost my sister eight and a half years ago, people will tell you it gets better, that's not really true, what happens is you learn to accept it has happened. I always feel that my sister is somewhere watching over me and the rest of the family.Your grandad will always be with you. I have just been told that I have cancer, but I am lucky that mine is treatable, hers was not, since then I have felt she is there with me, watching me, helping me. You will feel the same, not for a while but you will one day. Since she died whenever I have felt really sad about it and that can happen at anytime and anywhere I always say in my head over and over -- 'remember it is far better to forget me for a while and smile than to remember me and be sad' -- which is part of a poem I asked to be read at her funeral. Although people will tell you that you will feel better at the moment you will not believe them and you may be angry with people if they say they understand because no-one except you can understand how you feel, my sister's son was eighteen when she died and I know he has told me he was so angry when people said to him they understood how he was feeling, so if you feel angry or sad just do what you want to do, if you want to talk to people about it do so but if you don't want to talk about it that is your choice. Take care, be brave and remember the words from the poem they may help you sometimes. By the way I like your poem, some parts made me smile, which is lovely.
