But im very worried he's had his treatment for his tumour and now were waiting to know if they can do his op or not and we wont find out until after the dr has felt at the tumour to see if it attached or not, if it's attached he wont be able to have his op and it makes me my dad and our family feel upset and down, were finding it hard to deal with and im scared of loosing him, because when he last had his scan they found a mark on his liver and there not sure if it's spread to his liver or not and he cant have another scan on his liver until the end of nov, why i dont know but they wont do a scan on him until then.

After they've took another scan they dont know for sure if it is cancerous or not, which were all hoping its not cancer because we've had nothing but bad luck so far for the past 3 years in my family's life.

Its just that i need someone to talk to, someone that knows what im going thru etc because i feel like know one understands me and knows what im going thru and i feel alone, plus im scared because we lost my grandad nearly two years ago with cancer, he just ended up in hospital with a bad chest then we got told that he's also got cancer in his stomach, then he got promised that he could have treatment then the hospital stopped some of his medication for some strange reason then his health went down hill, then were being told he cant have treatment because he's unwell and not well enough to go ahead with the treatment.

So when he came out of hospital my grandad wanted to have a family get together at christmas, it was like if he knew that it would be his last christmas with us, has it came closer to the family get together he became more ill, he was to and from the dr's and hospital etc, then we had the family get together a few days later he was back in hospital again really ill this time.

Then we got told that his cancer has spread to most parts of his body, and it was only a matter of time it was horried and i really miss him and so does the rest of my family. Its nearly been two years now and my mum still aint over loosing her dad to cancer, so its like if its happening all over again with my family but this time its my dad and were all scared of loosing him, its only advance cancer in his rectum, but like i say its all new to me so i dont really know much and etc about it all only what we get told from the hospital.

Please help me if you can or even a chat will be nice just to know that someone does know what iam going thru or even just a chat will also be nice.

Thanks xx