5 Replies Last post: 30-Jan-2010 21:26 by Downunder63  

My wife has cancer

22-Jan-2010 13:49

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The beginning of December my wife lost the use of her left arm and then her left leg,We thought this was a stroke so got her into Hospital,

After a Brain scan we were told she had multiple brain mets a shadow on her lung and her breast,She got Radiotherapy and then the hospital told me they could do nothing else for her,

I was told my wife had weeks or maybe days to live,

I arranged to bring my wife home to look after her,we have hospital bed,hoist, wheelchair and comode for her,

Nurses and carers call every morning afternoon and night to help with things,

It is very difficult to see my wife like this and at times i break down and cry,but not in front of her as i don't want to upset her,

We have been married for nearly 20 years,I am 49 and my wife is 54,

My wife seems to be fine at times but i know the Radiotherpy has prolonged things,I take things one day at a time and am so thankful for each day i spend with her,

One of the hardest things is when my wife speaks of the future and when she gets better,maybe this is her way of coping,

I do get to speak to a macmillan nurse about things and have told my wife this,when i ask my wife if she wants to speak about things she gets upset and says no,

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1. 22-Jan-2010 14:18 in response to: orwell60
Re: My wife has cancer

My partner is similiar to your wife in the respect that he cannot admit to himself that he has cancer.

Because the dr can't pin point the exact cancer he has (he has a very rare type) so in his mind he just has a unidentified illness not an identified cancer. He won't even consider writing a will for his children as he is convinced he is going to live (his cancer has spread and is incurable).

He can't cope with the truth on any level about his cancer. But his denial about his condition is helping get through and from what you've written you wife is possibly doing the same. It's just her way of dealing with it, I know its hard but if planning for the future helps her then let it continue.

Hope that helps in some small way.

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2. 22-Jan-2010 15:00 in response to: orwell60
Re: My wife has cancer
Be guided by your wife on this. She obviously cannot cope with either admitting to herself she is terminally ill or admitting to you that she is. It may even be both. Not everyone wants to know or can cope with knowing. Is there a family member you can talk to as well as the Mac Nurses who can help with all the personal things you have to deal with. I think that by talking to the Mac Nurses your wife will then have to confront the fact she is not getting better and she finds it far easier not to. Go with the flow. If your wife wants to talk about the future and what she wants to do then let her. It is not going to change anything but it will give your wife comfort in doing this.
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4. 23-Jan-2010 21:35 in response to: orwell60
Re: My wife has cancer

Dear Orwell60,


You're right. You're wife probably talks of the future because it's her way of handling things. She probably is thinking of you too, and wants you to remain strong too. I guess I think she will say anything to preserve the thought of being with you as well.


However, your wife may need to speak to you of another possibility; that you may one day be on your own. Please try to prepare to speak to her on this level also.


Best wishes


Kathy

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5. 30-Jan-2010 21:26 in response to: orwell60
Re: My wife has cancer

I understand your situation my wife is 49 and also has been diagnosed with terminal cancer, she is very strong about her situation and talks very regularly of the future it helps so much to know what she wants and expects. I can only encourage you to slowly work the converstaion around to the severity of the illness maybe get the doctor to have the discussion so you can then get to the point of undertsanding what her wishes for the future our. This is one hell of a journey best wishes

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