Hi Rayslabs,just wanted to reply to your post.I know how you feel,i too lost my wife,on the 12th december last year.She had a short battle with cancer,only 3 months & in my mind she died way too young,she was only 48,bless her,& i was 41.We always thought we would grow old together,but this was not to be.I hope you are trying to cope one way or another,i have been like you & didn't even see the point in getting up in the morning,when i did get up,i would just sit on the settee looking out of the window wondering what to do.I went back to work but couldn't cope so i packed my job in,am very spur of the moment now & don't give things a lot of thought!! I managed to get a new job & this has helped a lot because there is loads of overtime available & i am just working my way through my grief.I also got some quality counselling at the local hospice,have you got one near you? If not,maybe macmillan could help set some up for you,it really does help.If not,post how you feel on this thread & the people on here can try & help you through your grief.As time passes,it does get easier,the way you feel doesn't go away,you just get used to feeling this way,that's how it is for me anyway.I really do hope you are bearing up & i truly have often thoght of you,wondering how you are,since first reading your thread a couple of months ago.
