My husband died November 2009 age 35 after his long battle with Multiple Myeloma. We had really started enjoying our marriage, then two years into our marriage we were hit with the news that would change our lives forever. We were wanting to start trying for a family at this time, but we were advised that the chemotherapy could make my husband infertile, so we knew the only option was to store sperm for when my husband was over his treatment. Now my husband has passed away, I have days were all I think of is how wonderful he was and how cruel it is that his life was taken away from him. I think of him all the time, crying most days, whilst going into work and hating being there even though it helps me take my mind of my pain for a while. I think of the fact that the happy family we always wanted has disappeared. I really want to go ahead next year, when I have given myself time to grieve the loss of the man who is eternally in my heart, and have the child we always wanted together, as I am coming up to 34 and feel I really would like a child - I am so broody, and my husband always said he gave me his blessing to do so, if I so wished., if he passed away. Even though my head is dreaming of the prospect of having my husband's child, I am pained to think that the child will grow up without a father, even though I'll make sure the child will know all there is to know about their father, my husband. Any advice appreciated if you have been through similar situation as I feel so isolated.

Love to you all xxxx